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Sunday, March 13, 2011

my unwanted and miserable moments in life, part 2.

sambungan...
oh lupe bagi tau...lepas dah kena basuh, diorg bagi second chance...2nd March, penentuan! 

jadinya...

lepas malam tue, kena basuh ngan en suami...kira round 4 la nie kan...mmg aku rasa penat, sedih, tak der harapan n mcm2 lagi la. ikot kan, nak quit jer. tapi pastu aku rasa tak aci lak kat diri aku. dh kena basuh baru dia bagi semangat balik kan, haru...baru la naik confident tue sket. yer, tq en suami ku. yang aku lagi terharu n kelakar sbb mama n papa pon tak putus2 backing aku. hahaha...best dpt dorg sebagai parents nie. oh yer, tee n bee pon ada bagi kata2 semangat jugak...tq korang! pastu, pk lak ammar. tak kan dia nak tgk ammi dia sebagai seorang BIG TIME FAILURE kan??? mana bole. so aku pon bangkit dari kegagalan n berpegang pada motto Cornelius Robinson (dr cite Meet the robinson)

"KEEP MOVING FORWARD!"


credits to Google...tq.
jadi, start subuh 24th Feb...
bekerja full time kat rumah. nak pegi toilet pon tahan klu bole. sbb takmo buang masa. mintak tolong mama sangat2 jaga kan Ammar. ammar pon siap dh hafal dialog ammi dia "ammar bagi ammi wat keje kay, ammi kena siap kan homework, klu tak lecturer ammi marah, nanti ammi nangis..." ammar pon mcm paham. so, aku cm brunch the whole week. tido maybe 2-3 jam masa tido kan ammar. dlm pukul 2-3 pagi bangun n wat keje smpi ammar bangun. ammar bangun teman dia turun bawah n then sambung balik keje sampai la pukul 6-7pm. dalam tue break2 solat, brunch (mmg time nie terasa la perut kempis mcm somalia)...tak log in facebook, email tak bukak, blog pon tak tgk langsung. muke time tue tak yah kata. eye bag bole tukar nama jadi eye guni haha...


tapi smpi 2hb baru la aku jejak kan kaki kat JO. mmg apa yang tak faham, tru ym n ikot instinct sendiri jer. haha...ok gak, mmg konsentret habis, tak der lagi soklan2 putar belit yang membelit otak dan sebagai nyer. tak der gangguan. mama pon terer je kontrol ammar. tq maa...i owe u so much. 
en suami pon tolong kejut aku malam2 n bagi semangat suh aku keje n dia pon tolong jugak, smpi ada satu hari dia tak tido malam...then pagi 2hb dia tak g keje sbb dia kata biar dia jaga ammar sbb baru dia tau bini dia bagi full responsibility kat mama kan...terpaksa. pagi tue pon dia tolong jaga printer...compile kan everything...mmg tq to u too...i luv u wlupon ada jer la yg wat kita nie tak besfren sumtimes...adat org kawin la kan? 

so apa verdict nyer?
seharian tunggu, macam tak berminat jer lecturer nak preview work kitaorang yg bersekang mata 1 minggu...tertido2 la aku kat kerusi qubicle aku tue. akhirnyer before maghrib dtg la supervisor aku n another lecture. kali nie kena present sket, tak macam last time. nampak mcm ok jer...aku pon rasa ok gak...mama n en suami asyik jer msg, tanya ok ke tidak...mmg takot jugak.


lepas maghrib, kita orang kena berkumpul. as usual nama akan dipanggil. tp dis time lecturer lain bangun n kata "we are not going to say pass or not...lets just say pass or probation." for me, better! klu tak sakit ati jer. panggil punyer panggil, nama aku tak dengar pon. aikkk, cuak! cuak! pastu dia tanya ada sape2 tak kena panggil? aku n 2-3 orang angkat tangan. trus supervisor aku kata, nurin kan? ada, PASS! syukur alhamdullillah...


tapi dis is not the end. 7th of April ada 2nd preview tok nk evaluate wether lepas tok viva or not. so buat masa nie kena kejar kan sebanyak mungkin. tgk, blogging do take so much time. sib baek mmg plan nak start keje at 3.30...ok adios people. next time baru citer pasal Ammar kay, byk achievements dia dah. kn la record everything. even this story...then ammar baru tau kenapa 1 mgu dl dlm hidup dia, after 6pm baru dia bole ngan ammi dia. sorry n tq ammar for understanding...luv u too.


the end~

p/s: back to work...back to work!

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Kak Dek

Good luck for ur 2nd preview k. U can do it!!! Sometimes it needs a lot of sacrificing, in order to gain a lot!! No Pain No Gain.

Like i said, n im gonna say it a million times, once its all done n dusted, thats it!!!!

So dont give up ok. We r basically d same.... im kinda dissapointed in myself not pushing dat hard to quickly finish my ACCA, now im paying d price when other ppl are enjoyin n chillaxing. its ok, lets just look forward, finish wat we started, n get it over with!!!!
Yippeeee...we'll get there SOON...


So keep up d hard work ok... :)

Baby~

elani makrai said...

bee, tq so much! tinggal few weeks left jer. huhuu 2 la, ikot kan mcm tak mampu...tp bila pikir balik, yup! mesti habiskan. so bole la start keje n bergaji nanti. mcm nie susah jugak sbb tak der monthly gaji...susah la benar rasanyer.

jom bee, kita mesti push habis2an. i know u can do it n i keep on praying that i can do it too.

insyaallah...

Anonymous said...

yup, ill keep u in my prayers too..InsyaAllah. :)
I believe with hard work added with prayers to the Almighty, nothing is impossible to achieve. D sky is the limit!!!

p/s: bile da begaji nnt, we can go shop shop together for ur needs ok. Its gonna b fun. :)

Baby~

peah @ peps said...

kakak sedara bagi semangat jugak! Keep on pushing! Push! Push!

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elani makrai said...

bee. thanx! i'll do the same too insyaallah...
tue la, bila serius duduk n wat keje mmg possible. tp tue la, 1 mgu sudah hangus...nie baru nk start pushing balik. huhuu

okehh, baru sedap nak berjalan kn??

kehh, tc bee. ada update pasal ammar. dont miss it!

peps aka ja :
push! push! push! jgn jadi pusher sudah haaaa...

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